Grace the Intern’s Review of CHOICE by A.J. Walkley

Format: eBook
Source: Bought

 

Haley Fry and her twin sister, Jamie, have been compared to one another since birth. Haley is the quieter twin, a lover of music who prefers solitude to spending time with multiple friends. A prodigy on the saxophone, she dreams of a career as a musician. Jamie, on the other hand, is the athlete of the family who prides herself on her popularity and how many boys are after her.

 

The twins’ parents, Larry and Maggie, place more trust in Haley because of her calmer nature. They expect the unexpected from Jamie, but not Haley. When Larry and Maggie learn that sixteen-year-old Haley is pregnant, they are shocked. Surprising everyone, but mostly herself, Haley faces a life-changing decision: Does she abort the baby or become a teenage mother?

 

“Choice” presents Haley’s dilemma in a unique way. The first half of this novel narrates what happens when Haley chooses an abortion, while the second half reveals Haley’s life when she chooses to keep the baby. Told through the eyes of the entire family, “Choice” illustrates the tough decisions involved in a teen pregnancy.

 
 

The parents never expected Haley to be the one to get pregnant. If anything, Jamie was the reckless one. She was the one who did impulsive things while Haley was the quiet one who thought about her future. If anything, she should be the sensible one, right?

 

The second I read the synopsis, I knew that I wanted it. Being a twin means that nobody else can really understand your relationship with your twin or how it feels to constantly be compared to somebody. It’s tough, but it’s also amazing. My twin, Hannah, and I are best friends, but we have different passions and at other times, we’re so alike that it’s tough to be with each other. People have this constant opinion like we’re the same person, or that we’re two halves of one whole. We’re separate people, and no other relationship is exactly like that of a twin’s.

 

I really enjoyed A.J Walkley’s take on twins. I don’t know whether she’s a twin or not, but she nailed the feeling almost exactly. It was incredible to read, and by the end of the book, I was both laughing and crying my eyes out. The premise itself was interesting.

 

It was also a bit sad for me to read because my twin and I are incredibly close. Sometimes we get into arguments and say things we don’t really mean but it still always upsets me to read about twins who have bad relationships. It’s definitely interesting, but still leaves me grateful that Hannah and I have the relationship that we do. I kept comparing myself to Haley and her to Jamie but Haley and Jamie were a bit ostracized from each other. I loved the heavy focus on relationships that A.J. Walkley focused on and the development and effort that she put into each one.
A.J. Walkley’s writing style was different too, especially with this book. What startled me when I first dove in was that A.J. started out with the parents. Not many teen books – or more specifically, books about teenage pregnancy – focus on the parents that much. I really liked that, because it does impact the parents a lot. Their points of view about Haley’s pregnancy were startling. In situations like this, a ton of emotions and decisions are put on the parents but most books and media just focus on the actual teen.

 

Haley and Jamie’s relationship is dynamic. Haley is quiet, who prefers solitude and her music more than clusters of friends like her sister does. In this way, Haley reminded me of myself and Jamie as my sister. Although Hannah isn’t always trying to drag me places, a lot of the time I prefer my own company to anybody else’s, with the exception of Hannah.

 

Haley’s narrative definitely reflected this. When she was narrating the sequence of events, her emotions were subtle and she was shyer than Jamie was in her narrative. She was the type to talk more inside her head then with people.

 

The story is about young love and sisters. That was the theme that I got with most of the book. Haley is finally falling for somebody, and she is completely head over heels. She’s still sensible, but she finally feels like somebody understands her and that she can open up to somebody and be accepted. Her transformation throughout the book was incredible to read about and experience.

 

I also like how there was a heavy focus on music and New York City. The descriptions of both were like a love letter which I loved. The mood of the book definitely came through with a few choice descriptions from the author.

 

Jamie tended to be louder and over-the-top, often not stopping to think when she says or does things. Sometimes she hurt Haley and her friends by doing this, but her immediate remorse also said volumes about her character. She always meant the best, although sometimes she did the wrong thing.

 

This aspect of Jamie was also one that I identified with because she’s the person who wants to do good things, but her actions always end up coming out wrong. She says the wrong thing to the wrong person at the wrong time, and it all ends up coming back to haunt her.

 

Jamie always wanted to be closer to her sister even when Haley was shutting her out, and it’s at this part that I actually started to feel like the book was changing me personally. Sometimes I feel like I block out Hannah in these ways, and I definitely could apply Jamie and Haley’s relationship to Hannah and I’s. This entire book was one that I used to reflect upon myself, and it also provided an entertaining story.

 

Perhaps the most unique and distinct part of the story was how it was written. It was written almost like a memoir, skipping around and looping back, and sometimes writing the same actions in a different point of view to show how it was different to everybody. I didn’t exactly love it or hate it, but it was a great way to tell this particular story with these characters.

 

The character development was excellent. With a book like this, your characters have to change drastically because of the circumstances thrust upon them. I was expecting a complete 180 by the characters but the changes to their characters came slowly, subtly. It was a beautiful way to create the mood of the book and I was able to relax into it and connect to the characters because of how they developed. It was more than a book but an experience. There’s a quote somewhere like the number one thing to do while writing is to connect the reader to your characters because they can’t tear themselves away when they invest in the character. I was majorly invested in the story of Haley and Jamie, not just because they are twins but because of their unique personalities and how the circumstances changed them. With every word, I was tethered closer to them and I cried when the book ended.

 

The only thing that made me hesitate was that I wish there would have been a smoother transition between the two “realities” that Haley went through. In one scenario, it explores what happens if Haley got an abortion. I wish it would have dealt more with the long term aftermath of her decision but it doesn’t. I would have liked to see it written maybe with a chapter detailing what would have happened to her later in life and how that one decision changed her life. It skips straight to the next reality, in which she keeps her baby. In this one, it did deal with a lot of the long term parts of it and this is where we truly see the characters develop which I really enjoyed.

 

Overall, I thought that Choice was a stunning book. The emotions and characters had me invested and I cried when I finished the book. There were only a few minor problems which I could ignore for the larger part and it was one of those books where afterwards, I put it down and thought about it for ages. I loved being able to read it and I definitely recommend it to anybody who enjoys good writing, solid character development, or if you are a person with sisters or a twin.

Introducing . . . Steven Katriel, our newest IIP Addition (an interview)

We were both already fans of Steve’s work, as luck would have it, when a submission from him blew in through our front door and landed on our desk. His manuscript was practically dusted in gold, beckoning to be read. Our only disappointment is there wasn’t MORE ready for us to immediately devour. Steve is an author of immense skill and an abundance of modesty. We, on the other hand, are not so modest in regards to Steve’s brilliance. Not only will his use of language charm you and his story and characters haunt you, but his story will linger in your mind. This is what Immortal Ink Publishing is all about . . . the stories we believe will live forever.

Now we’d like to introduce you to the man behind the curtain. Don’t hesitate to drop a comment or tweet/facebook/blog about this post for a chance to win a free copy of Steven’s first novella, The Portrait of Alatiel Salazar, an enchanting gothic horror read.

Onto the Interview….

What kind of books do you like?
SK: There’s very few books or genres I don’t care for – I believe a writer can learn from every written work, be it good, bad or average. I mostly read works which touch upon history, as I find my own age to be rather unromantic in comparison to other times. More to the point, a list of some favourite fiction and nonfiction books might present a flavour of my reading:
Thus Spoke Zarathustra - Friedrich Nietzsche
The Picture of Dorian Gray - Oscar Wilde
The Idiot - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Sexual Personae: Art and Decadence - Camille Paglia
The Haunting of Hill House - Shirley Jackson
Ghost Story - Peter Straub
Rosebud - David Thomson
The Occult - Colin Wilson

 

Why are manhole covers round?
SK: It’s a question which has always perplexed historians, isn’t it? Some believe the manhole-makers tried to placate the wrath of the sun god by laying down circular offerings and idols which resembled the fiery star. Alternatively, wacky conspiracy theorists claim that early Manhole Men just wanted people to stop falling through holes in the road. But…who made the holes, and also the roads? Those are the fundamental questions.

 

How would you describe your writing style?
SK: Antique, poetic, elegant; at least, I hope my prose displays these characteristics. I’m still learning the craft though, and am always aware of that I need to improve my writing.

 

What is the strangest thing we would find in your refrigerator right now?
SK: I’m not sure that there’s anything particularly strange in my refrigerator. There may even be some food in the gaps between wall-to-wall Cola.

 

What inspired you to write The Portrait of Alatiel Salazar?
SK: I very much wanted to write about an anti-heroine, and Alatiel somehow fits that description despite the fact that she is evil incarnate. Her revenge is payback for the way people of her gender and class were treated by their male patrons.

 

Of course, the book is influenced by Dracula, by The Picture of Dorian Gray and other classic novels but nevertheless it has something all of its own in that Alatiel and the Salazar clan are not exactly vampires, not exactly ghosts; and they can only be fought with their own weapons of choice – witchcraft and illusion.

 

Tell us about your soon-to-be-released novella!
SK: The story begins with the discovery of a journal in a windswept empty house. This tells the tragic tale of Helena Graham and her introduction to an artists’ model, Alatiel. Alatiel soon bewitches her admirers but her influence is malign and deadly; she takes Helena’s mind and body for herself and leaves a trail of bodies in her wake, leading to the home of her benefactor, the artist Cristian Salazar. Gabriel Holland and his allies must seek out Salazar and the sinister Cousin Beatriz in order to solve the mystery of his beloved Helena’s terrible fate. But within shadows, in the guise of night, walks Alatiel, the creature Helena has become…

 

Would you say your stories are more plot-based or character-based?
SK: In my mind, I have an entire history for each character from The Portrait of Alatiel Salazar, and the mutual connections between them made it easy for me to conceive of a whole series of books. In truth, the characters drive the plots and vice versa.

 

If Hollywood made a movie about your life, who would you like to see play the lead role as you?
SK: Steve Martin, in character as “Nathan R. Johnson” from The Jerk.

 

What is your super power?
SK:  The Power of Laziness – at the first sign of trouble, I leap into…bed.

 

What do you think of Immortal Ink Publishing so far?
SK: Absolutely fantastic. I’m very happy, and very impressed, with IIP – I honestly haven’t a single complaint or concern. Based on my experiences so far, I’d say that Immortal Ink is a wonderful, new option for writers.

 

What are the most important lessons you’ve learned in life?
SK: Wilde advised people to be themselves at all costs, and to always bear in mind what is truly important in life; these seem like good guidelines to live by.

 

Name a trend you just don’t “get”.
SK: All of them. As I get older, I feel like one of Anne Rice’s vampires – confused by my own time, and innappropriately dressed.

 

Rate yourself on a scale of 1-10 how weird you are.
SK: 9 going on 107.

 

Rate this interview on a scale of 1-10 how weird it is.
SK: 10½.

 

What are your dreams for the future?
SK:  Oh, the usual – wealth, fame, unlimited cigarettes etc etc. And then there’s that world peace thing.

 

Chess, Checkers, or Parcheesi?
SK:  Chess. I’m absolutely terrible at the game but at least I get to feel like an intellectual in the thirty seconds before my three-year-old opponents defeat me.

The Video Trailer!

 

Be sure to enter for a chance to win a copy of her book, The Portrait of Alazar Salatiel, by tweeting, blogging, or facebooking this interview and replying below with a link to your tweet/post. And don’t forget to sign up for release information on the book—it’s the best way to secure a discounted copy at the time of release!

 

 

The Portrait of Alatiel Salazar, by Steven Katriel

 

 

When Gabriel Holland’s beloved Helena vanishes from his life, he journeys to the home of disgraced artist Cristian Salazar, the man he holds responsible for her disappearance and the death of several friends. Once in the town of Carliton, Gabriel finds only malice and mystery in the tales told by the few brave enough to speak ill of Salazar and the sinister Cousin Beatriz. And within shadows, in the guise of night, walks Alatiel, the creature Helena has become. . . .

 

Read a sample HERE.

We are very excited about the release of this novella, which is sure to capture the heart and imaginations of readers everywhere.

Yours in Books,

Rudy and Shana

What Immortal Ink Publishing will be looking for in May!

PLEASE NOTE: We are open for submissions.

As those who have been keeping track of IIP are aware, we’ll be opening for submissions in May. We decided to put together a little overview of what we’ll each be looking for. Our Submissions guidelines cover the basics—strong characterization, character who are unusual, fresh treatment of familiar themes, honesty, and depth—but beyond that, we each have our special interests … the kind of interests that give a book a little bump to the top of our “To-Be-Considered” Pile.

Someone asked about length. We’re looking for Novel and Novella length titles. For novels, up to 125,000 would be okay, but it would really need to be that long. No. Really. Seriously. NEED.

Before we get into that, we want to impart an important reminder about why we’re so selective, as it’s not the reason most might think.

Naturally, quality is a factor, and we want to stand behind the books we believe in, but we realize this industry is highly subjective. That means we may pass on the world’s next bestseller. And if that happened, our reaction would be JOY for that author over their success and happiness that they found the right publisher for them (even if that publisher is themselves).

Putting that aside, however, our reasons are also more immediate. We only have the time and resources to put out an allotted amount of novels each year. Sure, we could take the approach of other small publishers and pop everything on Amazon without any consideration to editing, cover design, or marketing, then move onto the next offer on the table but that’s not what we are in this for. We want to FULLY support any author we bring on board. Which means fewer authors but more support to the ones we do accept.

The final main reason for our decision to be selective is that we want to support the books that *we’re* the best fit for. As authors ourselves, we can understand that feeling that ANY publisher could be the best publisher for us, if only they’d accept our manuscripts! But that’s not the case. An author needs a publisher who can respect their vision and help them achieve that vision in full. We don’t feel comfortable, for example, publishing science fiction novels because neither of us have any interest in that genre and have read very little. We’d be no help editing or marketing those novels, and the authors of those novels deserve those things and the best of it they can get.

So this is why we’re being selective. In the end, we’re looking for the right fit because that will benefit our authors and our readers.

Now onto what you probably came here for…

What SHANA will be looking for in May:

The main genres I’m gunning for this may are Paranormal, Literary Fiction, and Young Adult. There are some Horror titles I might be interested in, but Rudy is the Horror Guru in these parts. I like books that are dark, edgy, quirky, and have a great voice. I like quirky characters and you’ll win me over with an emotional read. Make me laugh, make me cringe, make me cry, make me want to jump your male lead… All these would be good steps in the right direction.

Paranormal: For this genre, I’m open to Fantasy, Romance, and Mystery. I’m not looking for high fantasy or urban fantasy style police/detective type novels. For Paranormal Mystery, I like things in the vein of Nancy Pickard or stories about hauntings. This may overlap into what I’m looking for in Horror as well. I like SPOOK, not gore. I’m not a romance novelist so if you are looking for a romance-specific editor, I’m sadly not your gal, but strong romantic elements are definitely welcome! Ideally, I’d LOVE to see some historical paranormal horror (light on the historical and heavy on the spook factor). I’m interested in the darker side of faeries as well as ghosts and witches.

Literary Fiction: The literary fiction I will be accepting will be well-paced, accessible, meaningful, and packed with emotion. A strong voice and exceptional and unique characters are especially important to me in this genre. I’m NOT looking for a beautiful 12-page description of the snot hanging from a small child’s nose. I still want to see a story here, but in this case the characters will make more of the story. I have a special interest in health issues (mental and physical) and various disorders.  I’m also interested in complicated relationships between two or more people.

Young Adult/New Adult: I’d LOVE to see some New Adult novels (between Young Adult and Adult.) I’d say more adult situations, but from early adulthood years, with the pacing and voice of young adult novel. Think age range 18-25. Also Adult/YA cross over, such as for ages 16-25, would be great! For Young Adult, I just want a quick, fun read or something emotional and meaningful that would be relevant in today’s society. I want to see some Young Adult characters that are intelligent. I want to see some Young Adult characters that aren’t depicted as whiny and self-absorbed. Please also hold the immature teens rolling their eyes at their parents. I’d also like to see some unusual points of view. Everyone loves a good underdog story, and I’ll be looking for those, too, but what about a story about a popular girl who is really hurting on the inside and no one knows. Maybe she is one of the mean girls, and eventually someone gets through to her? Make me like an “unlikable” character and you may just win over my editing pen. YA paranormal romance with new creatures and a focus more on tension instead of “insta-love” would also be appreciated.

Overall, keep the pace moving briskly, the voice fun, keep me asking questions, and give me a little spook/creep factor, and you’re well on your way to making my list. Naturally I want to see manuscripts that have already been through beta readers and critique partners, and I want to hear from writers who will be open to editorial suggestions in terms of writing. I will try to preserve the author’s vision for the story as much as possible, and I’m an editor who does her best to preserve the author’s voice as well.

What RUDY will be looking for in May:

You got it, horror. Lots and lots of horror. Well, I’m not interested in just horror, but more about that in a moment. Shana mentioned science fiction, how we’re not particularly interested. Well, let me say this: there used to be a close tie between horror and science fiction (though the genres have since veered apart). Yet there was that whole tie in the twentieth century: The Twilight Zone by Serling who went on to do Night Gallery, which also had a number of science fiction segments. I’m also really, really fond of a sci-fi/horror writer by the name of Fredric Brown. If you can do something in that vein . . .

Horror: Let me start out by telling you what I don’t really want to see. Mostly modernized monsters. Yes, I’m talking about zombies and vampires. I’m not crazy about the modern slant in which these monsters can actually be heroes. Though I love the antihero, sorry folks, I just don’t buy monsters as heroes. While I’m fond of the popularity of zombies in modern culture, I’ve pretty much seen it all–especially on film. If you send me an apocalyptic zombie novel, it had better be something I’ve never seen before. And remember that George Romero pioneered the zombie genre. He’s fond of social messages, just as I’m fond of interesting characters and depth. Use the zombies to say something about the human condition.

What I would also like to see that I don’t see much anymore is some period horror. Interesting time periods, especially. The roaring twenties. The fifties. Even something more historical.

I have an interest in serial killers, so I wouldn’t mind seeing some horror/thriller hybrids. Please don’t bother with the “killer taunts cop” storyline. It’s cliche. And if your story is procedural in nature, make it damned interesting. I’m a police-show addict, and I’ve pretty much seen it all. What I haven’t seen a lot–and I’d love to see it–is noirish-flavored horror. Lovecraft’s stories tilted in that direction. Sort of. Kind of.

I also wouldn’t mind some gothic horror pieces with supernatural elements.

Be gruesome. Be dark. Be original. I adore character depth. Like Shana, I also enjoy literary fiction, so anything dark and literary gets additional stars from me. If you can make me laugh consistently, you have a healthier chance of winning me over. And I don’t mind extreme content, either (I’m a fan of Jack Ketchum, Edward Lee, and John Skipp).

Although neither of us is a fan of high fantasy, I have told Shana that I would love to see an ultra-dark high fantasy. If you have one–I’m talking soot-dark here–send it over. Well, not now. In May or sometime thereafter.

I’d like to reiterate what Shana says above. Rejection doesn’t mean your novel isn’t worthwhile. Each of us have distinct preferences. We’re both picky. I tend to be turned off more by style–read: the way the words are put together on the page–than by any other factor. I don’t mind a slow burn, nor a novel that puts character ahead of story. But if I’m not enamored of your style, I tend to get impatient quickly.

Hopefully, we’ve adequately expressed what we’re looking for.

GRACE’S Choices!

A few weeks ago, we allowed some Young Adult writers to “pitch” their indie books to our intern, Grace, who has since gone through the list and selected her reading material!

 

What was most exciting was learning that Grace had already read (and enjoyed!) several of these titles, such as:

The Veil, by Cory Putman Oakes

Destined, by Jessie Harrell

and Untraceable, The Nature of Grace (Book 1), by SR Johannes

 

The other really neat news is that aside from the books Grace selected for us to purchase for her reading, she said she may possibly be buying copies of some of the others.

 

Grace says this was a TOUGH decision, but her list is as follows:

CHOICE, by A.J. Walkley

 

 

 

 

 

TANGLED TIDES, by Karen Amanda Hooper

 

 

 

 

 

EARTH, by Shauna Granger

 

 

 

 

 

THE GATE OF LAKE FOREST, by Ami Blackwelder

 

 

 

 

 

MEMORY’S WAKE, by Selina Fenech

 

 

 

 

 

INITIATION, by Imogen Rose

 

 

 

 

 

THE WAKING GROVE, by E. S. Lark

 

 

 

 

 

Thanks to everyone who participated, and please keep your eyes on this blog for upcoming reviews of this book (as well as the upcoming reviews of other books we selected the last time we did this—2 of which are already posted!)

 

Yours in Books,

Rudy and Shana

E-book Formatting

Let’s talk about the formats themselves. In the e-book world, there are two major formats: Kindle and epub. Kindle e-books are often signified by a “.mobi” file extension. The epub form is signified, as you might guess, by the “.epub” file extension. Some experts say that epub has pulled ahead of Kindle in terms of its flexibility. I don’t want to get into this discussion, but from my experience, having formatted Rebecca Hamilton’s Forever Girl, I can say, in general, that epub readers seem to be better behaved than their Kindle counterparts. Whether this is the result of the epub format or just the device, who knows.

There are a number of programs which convert a word-processor document to either Kindle or epub format. For instance, on my Macbook, I have Apple’s Pages and Keith Blount’s wonderful Scrivener, both of which will generate e-book files. At Immortal Ink Publishing, however, we need to have tighter control. We need to assure that a book will display appropriately on the Kindle, Barnes & Noble’s Nook, and on Apple’s iPad (also, not everyone has a dedicate e-reader; they’ll be viewing our books on a number of devices from a PC to an iPhone). Our decision involves formatting the e-book basically by hand.

How does one go about doing so? Both the Kindle and epub formats are based on the HTML markup language. It would not be inaccurate to say that e-books utilize a stripped-down version of HTML. Not all tags are supported. Not all CSS (cascading style sheet) directives are supported. But I’m not going to get into the deep technical nuances of e-books.

Here is the basic process for converting a word-processing document to an e-book:

  1. Place codes in your DOC or RTF file to represent special formatting. For Rebecca’s book, we were concerned about italics only. You could very well, however, have a book that includes bold, subscript, superscript, etc.
  2. copy and paste your document into a text editor
  3. Apply special HTML formatting to your text editor. This includes paragraph tags, chapter headings, etc.
  4. Place the results into a special HTML document
  5. Add CSS directives
  6. Use the Calibre software to turn your HTML file into an epub and Kindle file

Thankfully, you don’t have to reinvent the wheel. Guido Henkel has been kind enough to provide us with some guidelines in his “Take pride in your eBook formatting” series. I have to warn non-techies out there that these articles are in-depth and bring with them a steep learning curve, but if you take your time and read the articles carefully, you should be able to professionally format an e-book. I won’t go into the steps involved, as you can read the articles yourself—moreover, I’ve kind of outlined them above.

I’ve developed what I think is a pretty solid method for e-book formatting, thanks to Guido’s awesome articles. I have a couple of departures from his suggestions, however.

1) He recommends encoding dashes as HTML entity for a dash. I won’t get into the coding geekery of it all, but Shana and I found that the encoded dash is almost the size of an em dash. This makes passages, at times, difficult to read. Thus we opted to represent the dash literally as “-”.
2) Guido also suggests using a global format for producing both Kindle and epub files. For instance, the iPad can’t seem to center content appropriately—unless you trick it into doing so by nesting HTML tags. From my experience, this nesting, while necessary for the iPad, can make the Kindle device choke and gag (sometimes content is centered, other times it isn’t). As a result, I’ve decided to separate the source HTML files. I use one named “kindle.html” and another named “epub.html.”
3) He also suggests placing a CSS directive for chapter headings in order to force page breaks. In some cases, this didn’t always work. A method I found that seems to be more full proof is to create a DIV tag to simulate page breaks.

Some Gotchas

If you’ve made it this far, I want to add some technical tips. Even so, I don’t want to frighten anyone with technical details. I am by profession a programmer and database administrator, so these details, to me, seem normal. I’m providing them here for reference purposes only.

1) Kindle is not as obedient with CSS directives as epub devices. In particular, Kindle seems to ignore the “margin-right” directive.
2) If you intend to sell your e-book through Apple, keep the following things in mind:

  • You cannot post books to Apple unless you have a Mac
  • The Apple validation engine is a bitch. It’s much stricter than Amazon or Barnes & Noble
  • There is a long delay while Apple checks the content. I’ve read this can be as long as three weeks

3) You will need a fairly advanced text editor. Sorry, but notepad simply will not cut it. You need something that can do some fairly advanced search and replace. I use the wonderful—and free—Text Wrangler for the Mac.
4) Simplicity is the key. Make your HTML templates as simple as possible.
5) Check your e-book on an actual reader device, if you have access to one. The software on your PC is great for reading e-books, but it does not accurately represent your e-book’s formatting on an actual e-reader.
6) DO NOT use spaces in filenames. Ever. If you do, good luck making it past Apple’s validation engine.
7) Prefix all external links with “http://”; if you do not, an epub validator may look for documents of said name instead of understanding that those are external links.
8) Use “title” attributes in all anchor tags and “alt” attributes in image tags.
9) Calibre is a great program, but takes some getting used to. If you’re a techno-geek who is familiar with PHP, Apache, PostgreSQL, EMACS, etc., then you should be right at home. Calibre is not what I would refer to as a friendly program. It’s quite functional, though.

Our First Release: The Forever Girl

The Forever Girl, written under the pseudonym Rebecca Hamilton, is Shana’s first book. And what an engaging read it is. As Shana’s partner in Immortal Ink Publishing, I am honored to offer The Forever Girl as our first title.

I met Shana back in 2007. We were both members of a writer’s critique site. When she critiqued a chapter of mine, I immediately recognized her because she was active on the site’s message boards and always asked a lot of questions. She gave to me a highly-detailed critique–the detail, in fact, was stunning. I was glad to return the favor, so I began reviewing one of the early versions of The Forever Girl.

Shana explained to me that she’d just started writing. In fact, the ink hadn’t even dried on her manuscript. Even in the early versions, I recognized in Shana a deep passion–I’ve told her many times I don’t know another writer as passionate. Moreover, she really has talent. Of particular note was a scene that really struck my fancy. Sophia, the main character of The Forever Girl, was with her friend, Ivory. They were on their way to a clandestine after-hours club, and I was astonished by the precision with which Shana described the setting. I was reading the work of just any writer; Shana genuinely has writing acumen. Something that can’t be taught.  The particular passage of which I spoke is still pretty much intact in The Forever Girl.

Since then Shana has taken Forever Girl to another level. She knows as much about the craft of writing as anyone I’ve ever met. What really strikes me about Shana, though, is her natural creativity. I’m constantly amazed at the speed with which she can pull ideas from her head. In my opinion, all great writers have one thing in common: prodigious creativity. H.P. Lovecraft sculpted entire hideous, corrupt worlds threatened by ancient horrors. Great writers create and invent. Shana is no exception.

Sophia, the main character in Forever Girl, has her share of problems. She’s a recent college graduate who can’t find a teaching job. The fundamentalist Colorado town in which she lives aren’t fond of her Wiccan beliefs. Her own mother, in fact, has been beguiled by an extreme religious sect. This sect wants Sophia’s house, the house she inherited from her grandfather, and they won’t rest until she leaves. To make matters worse, Sophia is afflicted by a persistent hissing noise. Doctors have failed to cure her condition. Sophia endeavors to cure her condition through a ritual, but the result is not what she had in mind–to say the least. Having decided to investigate her family’s history, she discovers that one of her ancestors was executed during the Salem Witch Trials. Even more mysterious: her ancestor’s body disappeared.

Sophia begins to discover there is a supernatural world hidden beneath her own filled with vampire-like creatures and dark spirits. This alternate world is governed by a council determined to commit genocide. What connection, if any, does Sophia share with this supernatural world?

The Forever Girl is a sprawling, dark journey; it’s also Sophia’s journey of self-discovery. Shana is a highly metaphorical writer, deeply cognizant of how the material is arranged and presented. Even readers who are not fans of paranormal fantasy–I hadn’t read a single book in the genre prior to Forever Girl–should appreciate the marksmanship with which this novel is constructed.

It’s been a long journey for Shana, and I know that she will taste the fruits of her labor. The Forever Girl is available for sale from the following:

Amazon US (Kindle)
Amazon UK (Kindle)
Barnes & Noble (Nook)

Book Review: The Willows: Haven, by Hope Collier

The Willows: Haven, by Hope Collier, Kindle Edition

 

Summary:

It’s not until Ashton’s father dies that she learns the truth about her family: her mother, her father, herself. And it doesn’t stop there. Her whole life has been a lie, and as time goes on, Ashton is learning more and more that there’s no one she can trust. She’s exposed to a magical world that she never knew existed and yet possibly cannot exist without her. Ultimately, Ash has to decide if her life is worth fighting for, and choose whether to follow the path laid out for her, as others have done before, or carve her own path, as her mother once did. If Ash runs, she’ll be running forever.

Overall Impressions:

At its heart, this a good story with a highly original concept. Hope Collier brings a fresh voice to the Fantasy market, and this novel has a wide appeal, appropriate for the Young Adult audience while still appealing to adults. One of the things that I think make this novel a potential hit, aside from what I’ve already mentioned, is that it carries that all-important core value readers are looking for: entertainment. This book provided some good reading material for me when I needed to pass the time.

That said, it’s not without it’s flaws. I’d love to read a second edition of this novel if it ever came out, just because I see the potential for this novel to go from “great” to “outstanding” with as little as a single, strong professional critique and a few more passes for editing and proofreading. As it stands, there are perhaps a few small flaws that make this feel thrown together to my overly-persnickety tastes. Really, though, I don’t think most readers would notice, and this didn’t take away from the novels entertainment value.

Story: 

This story has good bones. Amazing bones. Honestly, I’d say this book has the ones of the supermodel. While this particular supermodel may need to work on her posture and perfect her runway walk, there’s no denying the beauty and potential here, which can be seen from a mile away. And it’s unique, a trait that books (and models) need to make it in the industry. Really, I just loved the general plot/idea/premise for this novel. A few developments in the plot felt forced, but they were few and far between and wouldn’t have been a problem if some of the other areas mentioned in this review were addressed.

Pacing: 

Overall, the pacing was pretty good. Hope Collier keeps the story moving forward (most of the time). There were a few spots throughout that I felt could have been tightened up, and the occasional errors perhaps also contributed to distracting me and slowing the pace a tad. And in other places, I felt things could have been fleshed out–but this wasn’t so much a pacing issue, and I will get to those things in the following sections. I wouldn’t say I was hooked, but I will say the pacing was better than you average read.

Voice: 

Hope Collier’s voice really sings in this novel. She has some clever turns of phrase (such as “warmth stole to my cheeks”and “heart sprang into my throat”) and uses some unexpected words in ways that feel completely natural. I admit to the occasional envy over such things.

Characters: 

Some of the characters “bled together” a bit, where they were saying similar things, speaking in similar ways, repeating the same actions/mannerisms, and so on. Also, while I liked the voice of the MC and a lot of aspects of her personality, her character suffered from “everybody wants me” syndrome. I didn’t find it believable that just about everyone in the novel wanted her in some way or another. Didn’t anyone not like her? Even the “antagonists” were really just people who were clearly attracted to her. She’s wanted by her boyfriend, her best friend, and the mystery guy. Even her boyfriend’s “friends” made jokes that indicated they wanted her, and there were tons of female characters throughout who just liked her. There was maybe one character in the whole novel who seemed not to like her (similar to the way Rosalie doesn’t like Bella) but we only see that for one sentence in the whole book and then that disappears and we never even see the motivation behind that. Also, I felt Ashton didn’t really try to improve her situation in many cases, she needed to be “rescued” too often, gave up on things too easily, and was at times, I hate to say it, a bit pathetic and unreasonable. All that said, this seems to happen a lot in Young Adult fantasy, so perhaps this is just a genre quirk that’s not my thing. Some character motivations could have been better developed. There were, however, still a ton of characters with very clear, distinct, believable personalities. Including Ash, even if I didn’t love her. I also never understood why Gabe called her Grace or Gracie (or why he used both.) Also, there were a lot of names starting with the same letter that led me to be confused about who was who in some parts of the story. For example: Kevin and Kyle. This was minor and only caused major confusion once. Gabe was also a bit more two-dimensional than I would have liked, but I saw some strong moments from him and think he had a lot of potential as a character. There were some really great steamy moments in the middle of the novel as well.

Theme: 

I didn’t really feel one way or another about the theme. I do think there was a lot of opportunity still left to build on the themes, however, especially in places where Ash is faced with choices, and in the ending specifically. It’s good, however, that the novel comes full circle in a sense, including in terms of theme, but I won’t get into that because I don’t want to give anything away.

Continuity: 

The story flows forward with very few jolts along the way. I won’t say that it’s forcefully driven, as the plot really revolves more on “things happening” than on the MC taking action and experiencing consequences and being forced into new situations. But most of the pieces come together in the end. The early chapters set the ground work while still moving the story forward and at the same time build interest. That interest, as the story moves on, soon turns to suspense. Sometimes there were some really good hooks to get me to read the next chapter, but some of them were “fake” hooks, that when read straight through didn’t make sense and weren’t supported by character motivations. If a character does/says something that makes no sense, I really need a motivation to make sense of it for me. Instead, those moments just felt like forced hooks instead of natural ones.

Logic: 

There were some plot holes–things that made me go … “Wait! That doesn’t make sense!” or “Hold on a minute! We’re missing something here. Help me connect the dots.” I wouldn’t say it was anything major, but since I took my time reading this, those things really stood out to me. I will say this though–the author did a good job of getting me invested enough in the story to think about it enough to catch what some of us call “fridge logic“. Some of the smaller logic issues included things like LABELED spare keys hidden outside. For those who would hide their keys outside, I don’t think they would label them.

Dialogue: 

Very natural dialogue. I never felt like the characters were saying things that people wouldn’t really say. The only time I was ever slowed down by the dialogue was during those times where characters sounded a bit too much like each other (mostly because of using the same general phrases). This didn’t happen excessively, but it was enough for me to notice.

Setting: 

Hope Collier KNOCKS IT OUT OF THE PARK on setting. While I did start to get a bit annoyed with the constant use of the word “scent” to explain scents, I’d say that is more of a stylistic issue that could be fixed by using a deeper POV. Mostly, though, what I noticed what this rich world full of details that made me feel like I was there. I could visualize it all. And yet, I didnt’ really feel like I was being given the descriptions. They just … happened (with perhaps the exception of one scene that went on a bit long in a rather telling manner, but it was a minor offense.) Really, though, I think this novel has some of the best setting development I’ve read in fiction in a long time.

Point of View: 

 

I was a bit disappointed with the number of point of view breaks in this novel, especially considering how it’s written in first person. There were times where Ashton seemed to be speaking for other people’s emotions or telling us the motivations behind their actions when she couldn’t have possibly known. And all this said “matter of fact”. I’d have thought Ashton would doubt herself a little bit more than that by the end of the story (after learning that things aren’t always what they seem), but this problem continued throughout the manuscript.

Editing: 

 

I noticed several recurring problems in the manuscript, which is easiest to just list below:

1) Formatting issues. Toward the end of the novel, new chapters didn’t start on a new page.

2) Repeated words or phrases. Hope Collier seemed to have a new “clutch” word, phrase, or action in each chapter. So in one chapter, she might excessively have eyebrows moving (maybe worded in different ways), or head shaking, or face touching, or fingers brushing on faces. In another chapter, she might use “laughed once” several times. Then the next chapter, it was “murmuring”. Then after that, smiling, then looking, then muttering, then “tight smile”, then face warming, and so on. There was a clutch word in every chapter. One chapter had tingling and trailing and then a tingling trail.

3) Occasionally there was missing punctuation, most commonly when a comma should have been used with a participial phrase (such as “jerked up in bed panting and soaking” and “Gabe shook me trying to get my attention”–as some examples of many). Also there were some missing hyphens.

4) Improper grammar: There were, at times, sentences that weren’t grammatically sound. For example: “Climbing into the shower, I turned the heat up and let the spray beat against my back, massaging away the stress.” Grammatically, that sentence implies she 1) climbed into the shower 2) turned up the hear 3) let it spray her back and 4) it massaged away the stress. ALL AT THE SAME TIME. I don’t think her stress was massaged away simultaneous to her climbing into the shower. Also some pronoun ambiguity caused a few moments of momentary confusion.

5) Typos (such as “held” when the writer meant “hold”) and missing words a little more commonly than I would have expected to see, along with occasional incorrect word usage. Proofreading would have helped with this along with the previously-mentioned formatting issues.

I won’t get into all of it. While there were a lot of comments in this regard and these problems (and several more) presented themselves more frequently than I expected, none of it was major and could all easily be fixed.

The Ending: 

I felt like there were a lot of unanswered questions at the end, but overall, it was such a strong ending that it made up for it. My main concerns were that 1) some of it was too predictable–including things I sensed were supposed to be a surprise–and 2) I wasn’t buying some of the things Gabe said at the end. It didn’t make sense, his motivations weren’t strong enough, he should have had to prove himself and explain himself more. Some resolutions happened to quickly (to the point I didn’t find them believable). But there were some beautiful passages in that segment that really nailed it and aside from the above problem I thought it was one of the stronger endings to a book I’ve read in some time. the only problems really tied back to the character issues.

Closing Thoughts:

While there were some things I have to nit pick regarding this novel, it was overall a good read and I’m glad I made the purchase. I made a ton of comments on my kindle and would have liked to share some examples, but I haven’t mastered the syncing to my computer yet. Also, I think most readers will overlook these things anyway.This novel has the potential to be a bestseller, and if it becomes one, I wouldn’t at all be surprised. It deserves to do well. My average star rating came out to 3.8 stars, but since I don’t have partial stars, I’m going with my gut and saying this is a four star book–one that could easily become five stars (for me) quite easily, and one that could easily already be a five-star novel to many readers. Hope Collier is brilliant and talented and has created a world readers will love.

My overall rating at this time?

I’d recommend this novel to others, and I’d read more from this author.

If you’d like to obtain a copy of this novel, it’s $2.99 on Amazon, and you can purchase it HERE.

Introducing: Intern GRACE — and a chance to pitch your already-published YA novel!

We were recently contacted by an ambitious, passionate YA Book Blogger. Her name’s Grace Smith, and she wanted to know if she can intern with us. After perusing her BLOG (as you should go do right this second!–the rest of my sentence can wait.) and chatting with her a bit, I realized how brilliant she was. She herself is a YA, but if you talk to her, you’ll see someone who is wise beyond her years. Someone who has a real future in this industry. We’re very excited to have her on our team and to support her in the early steps of her journey (with, of course, express permission from her parents, who have been equally as awesome as their daughter!).

Grace will have her hands in just about everything over here, from marketing and proofreading to SUBMISSIONS. Yes, Grace will be heading up our YA submissions department … because who better to decide what young adults would like than a young adult?

We may still be fielding those queries ourselves, and have Grace help us narrow down our requests, or we may have Grace help with that process as well. Basically, we’re happy to have Grace be as involved as time allows … bearing in mind that we won’t let time allow her to slack on her school work, social life, or family life, nor allow time to impede on the legal limits for working minors. You’ll probably still be seeing a lot of her, as she’ll play a very visible role on our team, but please pass on inundating her email box with IIP-related emails. You can, however, connect with her on twitter if you like @beachtwin110.

IN CELEBRATION OF OUR NEW TEAM MEMBER, we’re offering something we’ve offered once before and went over as a real hit. A chance for you to pitch your already-published YOUNG ADULT novel to our new intern, GRACE! If she likes your pitch, she’ll check out your work, and if you can hook her with your Amazon/Smashwords/etc sample, she’ll send us the title, and we’ll buy her a copy to read and review on our blog. If she loves the read, we’ll also work to promote your novel via word of mouth … for FREE. Because we like to promote good books, even if they aren’t the ones we published :)

 

HOW TO ENTER

*Read carefully. Failure to follow direction could ruin your shot at making an easy sale! I say this because the last time there were people who didn’t include title or purchase link, or posted books that provided no sample! For all we know, they could have been works of literary genius, but there was no way for us to find out!*

 

Please reply to this blog post with the following information:

Book Title:

Author Name:

Genre: (Hint: this should definitely have the words “Young Adult” somewhere in it!)

SHORT pitch:

Link to Purchase:

Link to Sample (if not available from the purchase page):

 

RULES:

SUBMIT THE ABOVE INFORMATION. We’re serious this time! If all of the above information isn’t included, we won’t approve the comment (because we don’t want to waste our new intern’s time).

YOUNG ADULT NOVELS ONLY. No adult novels that can pass as YA, either. By submitting, you accept accountability if your novel is not appropriate for YA audience.

ENTER BY February 14th!

AS MANY AS TEN BOOKS MAY BE SELECTED!

R.H. Zelen Reviews Florence and Giles by John Harding

We’re thrilled to be featuring the second review by R.H. Zelen. Last week, she reviewed The Guardians by Andrew Pyper. R.H. is a writer and editor with an academic background. She’s also a pop-culture junkie, and you should check out her site: http://lethallexicon.wordpress.com

Reviewed by Ren Zelen
Copyright R.H. Zelen – ©RenZelen 2012 All rights reserved.

Florence and Giles’ By John Harding

Turning  the Screw….

Florence & Giles is an intriguing Gothic tale, well thought-out and deftly plotted. It owes much of its inspiration to Henry James’s ‘The Turn of the Screw’ and is a tribute to that classic story of misguided and obsessive madness.

Set in remote and crumbling New England mansion, twelve-year-old orphan Florence is neglected by her guardian uncle and banned from any formal education as her absent uncle has strong opinions on the dangers of a clever woman.  Ignored by the minimal staff of the house and left to her own devices, she finds the abandoned library, teaches herself to read and devours books in secret – she appears a resourceful and intelligent young heroine. Keeping her self-taught accomplishments a secret from all, she considers them her own personal triumph, seeing herself as literary and articulate against all the odds. She insists on narrating her own story in a language of her own invention. This contrived language is a little awkward to get used to. Her insistence on turning nouns and adjectives to verbs and verbs to nouns “no budgery was to be had. I was in a weepery of frustration” – can rather grate and irritate at first, but once the reader gets used to its idiosyncrasies, it ceases to slow up the pace of the story.  One cannot help but admire Florence for her intellectual hunger and self-determination but, as becomes apparent, Florence is a girl grown headstrong in her own opinions, particularly as she has no-one to contradict her or curb her overactive imagination.

Highly observant and imaginative, she is prone to sleepwalking and is troubled by a recurrent dream in which a mysterious woman appears to enter the room of her younger, half-brother Giles, and gloat over him. After the sudden, unexpected and violent death of the children’s first governess, a second teacher, Miss Taylor, arrives, and immediately strange phenomena begin to occur. Florence becomes convinced that the new governess is the woman in her dreams – the vengeful and malevolent spirit of her dead governess who means to harm her half-brother Giles, to whom Florence is strongly attached. Against this apparent supernatural enemy, and without any adult to whom she can turn for help, Florence must use all her ingenuity to protect her little brother and preserve the world she has created for them both.

John Harding has created a novel of real atmosphere and suspense, chock full of gothic motifs:  secret towers, shadowy corridors, overgrown gardens, swishing black dresses and ghostly faces in mirrors. True to the Henry James story, Harding maintains the mystery of his small cast of dramatis personae, confining them in a narrow world where soon what is real and what is imagined becomes blurred and indistinct. Led into Florence’s isolated world by her own words, it is left to the reader to try to deduce what to believe – what is true and what is fantasy in this  increasingly fevered and stifling atmosphere. To Harding’s credit, he has left enough clues so that as a reader, one can guess the identity of the replacement governess fairly early on, but this realisation actually serves to ramp up the tension regarding the events of the story and its shocking climax.

Florence and Giles reads like a satisfying Gothic chiller, and even when the story arc lags a little it is still a fascinating study of perversity and self-delusion exacerbated by isolation and loneliness. This is well thought-out, slowly ‘turning the screws’ of tension and uncertainty, and I would recommend it to any lover of a good Gothic yarn.

The only questionable aspect I found regarding the tale, was that once the events had unfolded to their inevitable climax – I was left wondering whether Florence’s uncle’s misogynistic point of view, had, in this case, been, in fact, a terrible prediction.

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Two philosophies of writing

Overview of the philosophies

In terms of writing, there are chiefly two camps in which writers gather.

1) The rule disciples
2) The instinct disciples

We would also like to mention that there are quite a few tents sprinkled between these two camps, and that residents of these between-the-camp tents may seek supplies, shelter, and advice from whomever.

Rule Disciples
These writers tend to seek the traditional path to publication. They often read agent blogs, research the protocols for query letters, and they believe, at least on some basic level, that writing is a systematic craft, and in order to succeed, one needs to be familiar with the protocols and rules of the craft. These “rules” aren’t necessarily mechanical in nature, though they can be. They are often guidelines for storytelling. That you ought to show and not tell, for instance.

Instinct Disciples
These writers tend to look at the craft as an art form. Writing, to them, is similar to an oil painting or a song. The craft is extremely abstract, and rules ought not to get in the way of artistry. They may know some of the storytelling rules innately, though they will sometimes challenge these rules. Creation of a novel or story, to them, is self-satisfying; it’s not a limousine ride to fame and fortune. These writers will sometimes dwell in a state of misery. They are the tortured artists.

Rudy’s Take

Like most writers, I’m somewhere between these two camps, though I lean more toward instinct. I do, in fact, believe that writing is an art form, and while it may be about many things–rules included–it’s also about creativity, and I see a firm connection between innate creativity and great writing. I also believe that agents and publishers try to confine new writers to the rule-disciple camp, and I have to wonder the effects this has had on the quality of modern fiction. Which is not to say that storytelling rules are bad, but I believe the industry really advocates rules at the expense of art.

One has to realize that agents and publishers endeavor to sell a massive quantity of books. If you, as a writer, endeavor to sell a massive quantity of your own books (and that is your primary goal), then perhaps you’re best served reading agent blogs, ingesting the protocols of the query letter, and so on. But I think you have to weigh the goals of the industry against your own goals, and you have to attempt to strike some balance. If you give yourself over to the first camp while your mind is situated firmly in the second camp–you’re not going to be happy. You’re not going to be happy with your work or your progress.

I think we have to ask ourselves this question: Who are we trying to please–ourselves, our readers, or the gatekeepers in the publishing industry? We ought to realize that each of those entities might want completely different things. Our readers, what do they want? Do they just want to be entertained? Do they want escapism, or do they want to be awed be our intellectual capacity as a writer? Ignore for a second the standards advocated by the publishing industry. Keep in mind that these standards endeavor to illicit stories that sell. That being said, what do we want as writers? Do we want to be rich and famous? If so, more power to you, but that’s a tough nut to crack. You might be better served to delve into organized crime.

I do think the instinct disciples are well-served to find out what the other camp is saying. There are a number of tips and tricks you can implement in your own work, though you must be choosy–select only what is inline with your vision, and abandon the rest. Don’t accept the things that will make you miserable as an artist. By the same token, you can’t exist in a shell, either, not unless you have no intention of sharing your work.

Along the way, I’ve learned a number of interesting techniques from writing books, but I’ve also put aside those “standards” which don’t agree with my own vision. For instance, many agent blogs encourage new writers to stick to a single POV in fiction. That is something I am not willing to do. I’m of the belief that each story creates for us its own set of protocols.

Shana’s Take

I’m an in-betweener, too. I wrote first by instinct and as I began to revise, learned every “rule” I could. That’s not to say I followed every rule every time. In fact, the deeper I got into learning these “rules” the more I came to understand the reasons behind them. With that understanding, you can come to learn how to break the rules without any of the consequences (at least where readers are concerned, and that’s where I, personally, am most concerned). Other writers, however (at least those who are firmly in the “rule-camp”) may express how very wrong you are solely because you’ve broken a rule.

I lived in this writing-space for quite some time before coming across what is now my favorite book on writing…ever. Deepening Fiction: A Practical Guide for Intermediate and Advanced Writers. The book talks a lot about doing what is best for any individual story, from format, to structure, to pov and style. And I think this is important, because a novel will resonate more (for me) if everything is working together.

The great thing about the writing rules, however, is that they can help you fix something that isn’t working. Other times, however, doing something “wrong” might really just be finding another “right” way to do things. I’ll give an analogy. Think of some of the first cars. You had to crank them up to use them! Well, someone came along who knew that, but that wasn’t what they wanted. So they started building it another one. I’m sure someone somewhere told them they were building the car wrong. But if it works, it works, and that’s where advancement comes from. Yes, that innovator likely needed to know why the crank-model worked in order to make a new model. But sometimes knowing why something works is all you need. You don’t always have to do it the same exact way.

It’s no secret I advocate balance. Sure, if someone wants to write for themselves, there’s no need to learn the rules unless they think the rules will help them achieve their vision. But if you are writing for others, and others are scratching their heads at things that easily could have been fixed with a little more understanding of how to structure a sentence or how to motivate a character (etc), then it might be seen as a bit arrogant (to the writers own detriment) to completely ignore suggestions to work on their craft. As Rudy said, it really comes down to your goals. Don’t cry, “They just don’t understand my art,” if you’re unwilling to do anything to help them understand it. Conversely, if you don’t care if they understand it, or you’re writing for a smaller audience, stop worrying about the majority! Be okay with the kind of writer you are and know that you will be appreciated by some, even if not by the masses.

In other words, don’t let the matter of writing-style turn you angry. Decide what you want and find the best path to get yourself there. Be happy with who you are and who you aim to be…and allow other authors to do the same. You don’t need to convert them to your camp to feel validated. Your confidence needs to comes from within no matter which camp you are in. Otherwise, you can achieve your goals, even appeal to the masses or win some award, and still be perpetually unhappy.